The word “Integrity” and meaning behind it has been on my mind lately a lot lately.
the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.
“he is known to be a man of integrity”
I have always applied this word as it relates to my relationships with others, but never the relationship I have with myself. Letting go of my baby, my business, in IL and making the move to CO for my “big girl job” (9-5, 401K, health insurance, etc.) was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. By telling myself that I was burnt-out with by photography business, I attempted to protect my heart from a career decision I knew, deep down, was not aligned with my path. You know that little voice, tickling in the back of your head that says “this isn’t right, this isn’t for you?” That voice was trying to keep me aligned with my purpose and true to myself: Integrity.
After remaining miserable in a JOB that was killing me for 5 months, working for the weekends and slipping into a depression (how can anyone be depressed while living in the mountains of CO?!) I said “eff this noise!” and gave my 2 weeks notice. The big girl job with all of the “perks” was not worth the destruction of my life. I’ve made the scary/exciting decision to get back on my path- photographing women- and follow my soul’s calling. Man, does it feel good.
This article by Christy Farr struck a huge chord with me. You can read the full piece HERE
“To blossom into the one you came here to be, it’s important to continue simplifying your life.
Our purpose is written on our bones. Our passions pulse through our veins. We are This One for a reason. Who we are makes sense, even if we can’t feel that in this moment.
Our only job is to do what we love (our passion) in a way that honors our life purpose. Until we have those pieces, our only job is to figure them out.
Refuse to allow the chaos to distract us from our truth.
Our modern way of living is filled with excuses and our schedules filled with distractions. Our heads are filled with fear and our hearts with the weight of a thousand old heartbreaks.
Our homes are filled with the physical world remnants of the past—an unkept archive of both pain and possibility. We long to grow and change but the space keeps pulling us back into the old ways. The sea of chaos pushes us forward and then pulls us back.
We feel inspired, and then defeated.
It doesn’t have to be this way. It cannot to continue to be this way. This is a matter of integrity. Our integrity is on the line. The world needs us. Now is the time.
It is time to get real, Wild One. It’s time to open your eyes and look at your reality. Is this what you came here to do?
Is this life of your dreams?
Seriously—think about it. Think about you.
Do you have space for your life for the real you?”
Last night, I took out my camera for the first time since living in Colorado. The excitement of being behind (and in front) of the camera (I was my only human subject available to shoot!) was thrilling. I am once again living with integrity. I know my purpose and I want to share it with everyone who will listen.